Beautiful

Beautiful
That was all she wanted to be
But she didn't realize she was already
Beautiful
It became an obsession
All she wanted was to be
Happy
Loved
Beautiful
But when she looked in the mirror
She wanted to cry
All she could see was
Fat
Ugly
Loveless
So she stopped eating
She tried so hard to be
Pretty
Soon the scale
Told her if she was going to have
A good day
Or a bad day
It made her feel like
She was alone
And everyone had left her
She was not only hurting herself
But everyone that loved her
Ana
Was the only friend she had left
Best friend
True friend
Ana made her feel like she was
Alive
Strong
In control
But that was the exact opposite
Of what Ana truly was
Ana was a poison
A dream that could never die
But she didn't see that
She was blinded by Ana
Her skin was sallow
And she was emaciated
She got smaller
And smaller
Until her parents couldn't
Ignore it no longer
They forced her to get help
She went to a doctor
And was immediately diagnosed with
Anorexia
A disease
A sickness
She was kept at the hospital
And was fed through a feeding tube
Down her nose
Even at the hospital
She secretly began to
Binge and purge
She couldn't bare
Eating a real meal
Ana had taken over her
Mind
Body
Soul
After a couple of weeks
She was released
From the hospital
But she had to attend a physiatrist
After a few meetings
She easily convinced him
Her anorexic days were over
How simple it was
To deceive them
To hide the
Pain
Sorrow
Lies
Behind her smile
But it still showed in her eyes
All she wanted
Was to be
Beautiful
Why couldn't they accept that
One day
She decided to take a jog
She collapsed
And died of heart failure
She passed away at 15 years old
And weighed 76 lbs
But the worst part was
She died
Alone