Liar

I leaned against my window sill
Taking another smoke
Gazing at the charcoal skies
Thinking
Remembering
Those three little words
"I love you,"
What a bunch of bullshit
How foolish I was to believe him
They sent chills up my spine
Those words
That used to mean everything to me
Coming out of his mouth
But now
They were empty
Nothingness
A waste of time
I remembered
That feeling I got
Those butterflies
The chills
The happiness
I had given him the ability
To break my heart
But I trusted him not to
I shouldn't have
I should've never let my guard down
But now it was too late
For second thoughts
Why had he told me
He loved me
Such a lie
A lie
I should've seen coming
But I didn't
I was blinded by
The happiness I felt
Love
Such a strong word
It tends to be misused
People think it makes them stronger
But the sad truth was
It made them weaker
It made me weaker
I awed at the moon in deep thought
The moon
The full moon
Milky white
Such a beautiful sight
His face
His eyes
His lips
I could visualize
Every detail so clearly in my mind
The scar on his cheek
The "battle scar" we had called it
I remembered
How I would count the colors in his eyes
Just to be close
Blue
Green
Grey
A mix
His lips
His kiss
I wasn't the only one
Who received that kiss
The cigarette fell out of my mouth
I clenched my jaw
As the memories whirred through my mind
That night
At what was supposedly
The party of the year
I had walked into a
Nightmare
One that would scar my memories
Forever
I had been
Cheated on
Lied to
Played
I couldn't bare thinking about it anymore
I took another cigarette from my pack
Another eleven minutes
Deducted from my life
Eleven minutes less of
Suffering
Misery
Pain
I knew one day
Death would soon greet me
But what I didn't know was
That one day was going to be
Today