Gone

Forty-two days
Since that faithful day
And I could still remember every
Detail
Moment
Feeling
It was still clear in my head
As if it had recently happened
I was afraid that I would
Forget
But it was so painful to
Remember
This memory I had memorized for so long
It hurt so much to think about him
But I couldn't stop
I was lost
I was a different girl now
Different from the girl everyone once loved
Now I was
Empty
Lost
Gone
I never let a tear escape after that day
There was an empty space in my heart
And it belonged to him
But now he was gone
Forever
How can I live with a hole in my heart
He was my everything
But now my everything was
Gone
Now I was
Nothing
Why did he have to leave me here
Alone
Miserable
Waiting
I missed him so much
That fire in his soul
That would light up in his
Smile
Eyes
Kiss
Fate had snatched him away
But he was still imprinted onto my
Memories
Past
Soul
And nothing was going to change that
I flipped through my journal
To the page I had visited most
I could recite the entry in my head perfectly

"I stood paralyzed in shock
Trying to comprehend what was happening
Yesterday, I was in his arms
Safe
Warm
Happy
Today, I stood before his house
Set ablaze
Knowing thats somewhere in there
Derrick Foster
Was dying
I shed no tears
But my heart became cold and hollow
After that, I was never the same they say"