Happy New Year

Another year
Spent alone
Closer to death
Sweet salvation of death
I could hear the party going strong downstairs
Laughing
Talking
Joy
Nobody noticed I was gone
They never do
They never did
They never will
It was as if I was invisible
Am I?
Well it seemed like it
But nothing is as it seems
I was just another face in this
Cruel world
I'm just another name
That nobody bothers to memorize
A waste of space
And now another year was passing by
Happy New Year
New Year
A chance for a new beginning
A new beginning was
What I wanted
What I needed
Every year I promised myelf to
Change
Forget
Move on
But it's so hard
I never kept those promises
Why should I keep my promises if
No one else kept theirs
I could still hear his voice loud and clear
"I love you, forever and always,"
Another broken promise
Was he kidding?
Because it seemed like it
He didn't mean it at all
He said forever
And I believed in him
Such a
Stupid
Gullable
Naive
Girl I was
He only gave me a year
But it was the best year of my life
Only a year but he managed to
Break a heart
Steal a part of a soul
Destroy a girl
A girl that was once full of
Life
Happiness
Love
Now she was dead
Funny, that girl was
Me
But I was still alive
Why am I alive?
There's nothing to live for anymore
With all the emptiness
And nothing to fill it up
Living was pointless
I was already invisable
And nobody would
Notice
Miss
Care
If I died right now
At least I wouldn't suffer anymore
I looked at my clock
11:59 p.m.
One minute until the next decade
2010
I could hear the countdown begin
"10...9...8...7...
6...5...4...
3...2...1
HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!"
Goodbye 2009
Welcome 2010, to my
Living hell